Sunday, December 7, 2008


1963

when they bombed four little girls

in a church in alabama

there wasn't peace


1968

when martin luther king was shot

peace fell from the balcony of the hotel

he was standing on

and unraveled

like a ball of yarn

down the street

towards the past

there wasn’t peace


1980

it was meant to be 

a peaceful act

when john lennon

shook mark david chapmans hand

but then there was a gun

there wasn't peace


2001

the world trade center went down

the world mourned 

and then the world turned

and retaliated

and dishonored the dead 

by creating more violence

there wasn't peace


2008

peace was absent

in each of these years

but there is a year

and that year is now

and maybe now there will be peace





Thursday, November 27, 2008


1963

when they bombed four little girls

in a church in alabama

there wasn't peace


1968

when martin luther king was shot

peace fell from the balcony of the hotel

he was standing on

and unraveled

like a ball of yarn

down the street

towards the past


1980

it was meant to be 

a peaceful act

when john lennon

shook mark david chapmans hand

but then there was a gun

there wasn't peace


2001

the world trade center went down

the world mourned 

and then the world turned

there wasn't peace


2008

peace was absent

in each of these years

but there is a year

and that year is now

and maybe now there will be peace





Sunday, November 23, 2008

when they bombed four little girls
in a church in alabama
there wasn't peace

when they destroyed 
the world trade center
the world mourned 
and then the world turned
and retaliated
there wasn't peace

when martin luther king was shot
peace fell from the balcony of the hotel
he was standing on
and unraveled
like a ball of yarn
down the street
towards the past

it was meant to be 
a peaceful act
when john lennon
shook mark david chapmans hand
but then there was a gun
and a death and
there wasn't peace

how can there be peace
in the midst of these acts 
when there have been deaths
and terrorists and wars of retaliation
and corruption?
where is the peace

Sunday, October 26, 2008

wa-2 final draft

A boy with wings, pale and flat, lay underneath the surface of the water. Metallic fish swirled around him like razorblades, slicing this way and that, drawing sharp, bloody cuts in the water. 


Above the boy and the fish, the water roared by, waves sandpapering rocks with their rolling bellies. The hostile sky, a lightyear away, swam dark and malignant, a cancerous tumor, spreading rapidly. Multiplying cells. 


There was a toadstool on the bottom. The boy’s toe gently scuffed it, the cap falling off in slow motion, pieces of mushroom cascading across pebbles. Floating away. To another place.


The boy with wings' hand was pinned against a rock, his fingers lean and flat, as if tacked to a bulletin board. Something fluttered inside them, consciousness awakening from a long hibernation, pale and rasping to be let out. His fingernails whispering against the rough, asking to be let free.


But she couldn't let him go, the girl perched above on the smooth stone, worn by water, fitted to her frailness like a throne. The princess of flat boys with wings. The princess of boys drowning beneath rocks. The pastel rays of light reflected off her gunmetal dress, the hem crinkled and brittle, stainless steel dripping down the sides of the rock, solid silver teardrops falling on the boys' wings. The waterline was rising. The boy was drowning. And she sat there waiting. 


"I can't let you go yet." The boy with wings was under water. Swishhh swishh. He was slowly vanishing beneath the swirl of liquid, the life leaking from his toenails, purple. "I can't let you go yet." What was she waiting for?


As the boy dissolved, he arched his blue spine, and slipped out of the wings. Snap.  Snap.  The elastic caught on his wrist, wrapped around his ineffectual thumb.  His thumb dissolved.


The girl saw the wings, ascending, sparkling beneath the grime, the grime from a drowning boy who no longer had wings.  The wings emerged from the depths,  floating like a lullaby across the still, inky water, the liquid that had cut rocks.  They fluttered, lifted off the water.  


They were caught on a whisper from a watcher who had seen a sister and a brother fighting over a pair of wings, fighting over two pieces of wire threaded with lace cut-outs, shimmering tantalizingly.  A watcher who had been these children, seen their covetous looks at the sight of these wings.  A watcher who knew that their mother had told them to share, a mother who was now a mother of one, a girl with wings.  


High above, above the girl and the wings, and the glassy violet water, above the storm, the watcher watched, watched his sister.  Watched her standing on a rock, watched the wings lift off the water and glide to her outstretched hands like a small bird.  The boy watched his sister, a girl with wings, turn and throw them back to the water, the water which swallowed the wings, rolling and crashing, shredding them against the rocks.  The boy who used to have wings watched the girl crouch above the waves, saw her face melt, the real tears, running down to the water, mixing and rolling.  The boy turned and saw that behind him, attached to his back, was a pair of real wings.

Monday, October 20, 2008

wa-2 draft 2

A boy with wings, pale and flat, lay underneath the surface of the water. Metallic fish swirled around him like razorblades, slicing this way and that, drawing sharp, bloody cuts in the water. 


Above the boy and the fish, the water roared by, sandpapering rocks with their rolling bellies. The hostile sky, a lightyear away, swam dark and malignant, a cancerous tumor, spreading rapidly. Multiplying cells. 


There was a toadstool on the bottom. The boys toe gently scuffed it, the cap falling off in slow motion, pieces of mushroom cascading across pebbles. Floating away. To another place.


The boy with wings' hand was pinned against a rock, his fingers lean and flat, as if tacked to a bulletin board. Something fluttered inside them, consciousness awakening from a long hibernation, pale and rasping to be let out. His fingernails whispering against the rough, asking to be let free.


But she couldn't let him go, the girl perched above on the smooth stone, worn by water, fitted to her frailness like a throne. The princess of flat boys with wings. The princess of boys drowning beneath rocks. The pastel rays of light reflected off her gunmetal dress, the hem crinkled and brittle, stainless steel dripping down the sides of the rock, solid silver teardrops falling on the boys' wings. The waterline was rising. The boy was drowning. And she sat there waiting. 


"I can't let you go yet." The boy with wings was under water. Swishhh swishh. He was slowly vanishing beneath the swirl of liquid, the life leaking from his toenails, purple. "I can't let you go yet." What was she waiting for?

Sunday, October 12, 2008

WA-2 first draft

A boy with wings, pale and flat, lay underneath the surface of the water. Metallic fish swirled around him like razorblades, slicing this way and that, drawing sharp, bloody cuts in the water.

Above the boy and the fish, the water roared by, sandpapering rocks with their rolling bellies. The hostile sky, a lightyear away, swam dark and malignant, a cancerous tumor, spreading rapidly. Multiplying cells.

There was a toadstool on the bottom. The boys toe gently scuffed it, the cap falling off in slow motion, pieces of mushroom cascading across pebbles. Floating away. To another place.

The boy with wings' hand was pinned against a rock, his fingers lean and flat, as if tacked to a bulletin board. Something fluttered inside them, consciousness awakening from a long hibernation, pale and rasping to be let out. His fingernails whispering against the rough, asking to be let free.

But she couldn't let him go, the girl perched above on the smooth stone, worn by water, fitted to her frailness like a throne. The princess of flat boys with wings. The princess of boys drowning beneath rocks. The pastel rays of light reflected off her gunmetal dress, the hem crinkled and brittle, silver steel dripping down the sides of the rock, solid silver tear drops falling on the boys' wings. The waterline was rising. The boy was drowning. And she sat there waiting.

"I can't let you go yet." The boy with wings was under water, he didn't hear. Swishhh swishh. He was slowly vanishing beneath the swirl of liquid, the life leaking from his toenails, purple. "I can't let you go yet." What was she waiting for?

Sunday, September 28, 2008

my granfather

I’d slept in, it was already past the time I was supposed to be getting ready for school.  The sunlight lit my room from underneath.  I heard a muffled cry from downstairs.  

I opened my door and yelled, “Whats wrong?”  I expected my mom to yell up, “Nothing, your sister’s just singng loudly.”  But I realized it was real crying.  I was annoyed, I wanted my sister to be quiet, I though she was being dramatic, I wanted her to shut up.  “Why is Indigo crying?” I yelled downstairs.  My mom appeared at the bottom of the stairs, her face crinkled with tears.  The sobbing grew louder.  

“Honey, we’ve had some sad news.”  

“Oh my god, oh my god, don’t tell, I don’t want to hear it!” I screamed, covering my ears.  I spun around, trying to block it out, trying to go back to my room, to recover the moment filled with calm sunshine and orange.   

“Your grandfather died.”  Oh my god...The blood pulsed through my head, swishing in my ears.  Rancid sadness leaked out of my heart and coursed through my body.  Yet something close to relief also swept over me.  I ran to the bottom of the stairs and buried myself in my dads arms.  I started crying.  My mom and sister were huddled on the couch, my sister trying to be brave for me, and not cry as hard.  

My dad seeemed less upset than the rest of us.  It was his dad and I was sad for him, more than for myself, but he wasn’t crying as hard as the rest of us.  He seemed accepting of the fact.  My grandfather had been quietly losing his memory for years.  He barely recognized his four sons and hadn’t known who I was for months, maybe years.  My dad had prepared himself, steeled himself.  I hadn’t.  Despite losing my grandmother and great grandmother when i was four, I hadn’t shut off the part of my heart that was leaking right now.  

I could feel my grandfathers hands as I sat there crying.  They were strong hands, baseball playing hands, always cold and veiny when I’d known them.  Yet despite their temperature, they’d always held an inner warmth.  When one loses their memory, they lose all pretense.  In his heart, my grandfather was a quiet, loving person, and, due to his illness,  this was all he was the last few years of his life.  Whenever I think of him, I think of his hands, and of his silent warm strength.

Monday, September 15, 2008

my grandad draft 2

I’d slept in, it was already past the time I was supposed to be getting ready for school.  The sunlight lit my room from underneath.  I heard a muffled cry from downstairs.  I opened my door and yelled whats wrong.  I expected my mom to yell up nothing, your sister’s just singng loudly.  But I realized it was real crying.  I was annoyed, I wanted my sister to be quiet, I though she was being dramatic, I wanted her to shut up.  Why is indiggo crying i yelled downstairs.  My mom appeared at the bottom of the stairs, her face crinkled with tears.  The sobbing grew louder.  Honey, we’ve had some sad news.  Oh my god, oh my god, Don’t tell, I don’t want to hear it! I screamed, covering my ears.  I spun around, trying to block it out, trying to go back to my room, to recover themoment with the calm sunshine and orange.   Your grandfather died.  Oh my god the blood pulsed through my head, swishing in my ears.  My heart was pounding, and rancid sadness was coursing through my body, out of my heart like a leak.  Yet something close to relief also swept over me.  I ran to the bottom of the stairs and buried myself in my dads arms.  I started crying.  My mom and sister were huddled on the couch, my sister trying to be brave for me, and not cry as hard.  My dad seeemed less upset than the rest of us.  It was his dad and I was sad for him, more than for myself, but he want crying as hard as the rest of us.  He seemed accepting of the fact.  My grandfather had been quietly losing his memory for years.  He barely recognized his sons and hadnt known who i was for months, maybe years.  My dad had prepared himself, steeled himself.  I hadn’t.  Despite losing my grandmother and great grandmother in the same year, when i was four, I hadn’t shut off the part of my heart that was leaking right now.  I coukd feel my grandfathers hands as I sat there crying.  They were strong hands, baseball playing hands, always cold and veiny when id known them.  Yet despite their temperature, they’d always held a warmth, an inner warmth that was conveyed depite his quiet nature and mental fogginess.  Whenever I think of him, I think of his hands, of his silent warm strength.

Sunday, September 14, 2008